Thursday, 06 November 2008

• Been a few days...but here's more for you

  Hi everyone! I had a backslide (an annoying one at that) the reason I haven't updated or anything in the last few days, was my cousin came to stay with me on the way through the state. We had fun staying up late, watching girlie movies, and she bought all kinds of snacks and stuff. It was so annoying! The first night, I was like, "no, I'm trying to eat as clean as I can," and I felt bad because she is like 75 pounds or so MORE than me, so I didn't want to throw my diet/healthy life in her face, and I didn't want to make her feel bad. She was giving me a really hard time about it, and I just let it roll off my back. THEN, the next day, she ordered pizza. Without even telling me first. She said that she "knew" i wouldn't have wanted it, but that I wouldn't be able to resist it. That was the truth- and I'm going to be honest- I was MAD. Why is it that people who KNOW you are trying to eat right feel they HAVE to shove bad food in your face??!!! I don't get it! I wasn't talking about it, or giving her any reason to feel awkward about it- and here she goes and sabotages me on purpose??! I feel that it's so immature.

  I did eat the pizza, and then she talked me into making up a batch of cookies and cupcakes for her to take to my other cousin (that she's off to now) and I went along with it, because when I've eaten bad at one part of the day it's REALLY hard for me to get back on track the whole rest of the day. Man, I am so annoyed. I feel bloated, pudgy, and my stomach is screaming from all the crap I have eaten. I hope I can get rid of whatever I gained in the next week. This morning, I was too scared to weigh myself. I knew I'd of just been mad and beaten myself up over it- but it's done- I can't change it- so I can only move forward and try to make it better.

  Oh well...Onto the thinspo..

   

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